Sunday, August 29, 2010

bottled creativity

over three years of this blog, i've had my fair share of writer's block.

not any more though.

these days, when i don't know what to write, i just check my twitter favourites.

about half the stuff in my favourites that are my own tweets are blog post ideas.

no kidding.

ps: this one wasn't. although it quite possibly could have been. must check favourites again.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

invincible

a story i just read reminded me of this incident:

my friend was riding his bike, and got knocked down.

he didn't get injured at all.

so he stood up, shook his fist at the sky, and screamed out loud:

i'm fucking invincible!!!


he then picked up his bike and rode off.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

yesterday's dream

i've started remembering my dreams again. i'm happy about it.

anyway, yesterday's dream:

i was back in college (xavier's, to be specific). i was on my way to attend a lecture in the multimedia room. it was a *religion* lecture (i was never taught religion in college, btw - the nearest was "PHV" - something and human values. in 11th.)

anyway. i was in college, walking to the MMR. i was almost late for the lecture.

on the corridor, i caught up with my friend (who btw, happened to be my lab partner when i was in college). in my dream, she was pretty thin, and about my height (in real life, she's kinda chubbier and shorter). and was wearing a green t-shirt and jeans. in fact, barring her face, she looked suspiciously similar to one of my recent crushes. hmmm.

anyway, she was carrying a cardboard box that was full of t-shirts.

apparently she'd been helping organize some musical event, and the t-shirts were branded with someone who played there.

i can describe the t-shirt, cos it looked rather cool:

it was an indigo cotton collared tee, with one white and blue stripe running the length of the seam from the armpit to the hem on the sides, and on the right side, midway through the stripe, the name of the band was printed in the same white and blue pattern, in the same thickness as the stripe.

anyway, in the dream, she gave me a t-shirt, but it was one size too small.

we then sat at the same desk in the MMR (in real life, the MMR didn't have desks, it had chairs that had one broad armrest that was broad enough to rest a writing pad or notebook).

because of the cardboard box, there wasn't enough room at the desk to take notes, so halfway through the presentation, we moved it from our desk to the floor at the front of the classroom.

also, for some reason, the guy conducting the lecture (a thin, tallish priest i didn't recognize), gave her the remote control that could control the presentation.

we were too busy talking during the presentation to see what it was about.

that's when i woke up.

45 minutes late for work.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

birthday resolutions

10 days later, time for a review:

1. i won't drink, except on occasion. and i won't drink too much.

verdict:

so/so. i did drink a fair bit on friday night, but it was all social, and i didn't drink till i even got buzzed. i think that's fine.

2. i will go to church and pray often.

verdict:

failed. completely. let's see if i can pick up now.

3. i will exercise.

verdict:

not started yet. the cycle will be fixed tomorrow. once i start cycling to work five days a week, i can forgive the few days i've missed.

4. i will pick up my performance at work.

verdict:

work in progress. not much success yet. efforts are underway.

5. i will sort out my emotional baggage

verdict:

work in progress. although i'm not really sure if i will actually succeed or not. no game changing moves planned yet.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

the bro code

the latest addition:

when your wasted girlfriend wants to give your best friend a rather intimate and long drawn hug and kiss, you hold onto his cigarette (and take a couple of drags so that *it* isn't entirely wasted), and wait for them to finish.

also, wait for one of her friends to pull them apart and shove her in your direction. eventually.

that's definitely a new one... I think.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

happy birthday!

I wish I could quote pink floyd's "time".

another trip around the sun.

another world left undone.

a birthday is like jan 1st. a time to take stock, a time to think.

I don't want to take stock or think.

but I do know what I have.

I have people who love me. and I have me.

celebrate in my name. actually, never mind. just celebrate.

god loves you and me.  blessings.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I am a beautiful person.

My phone has this keyboard app installed, that looks at stuff i type and tries to predict the next few letters and words. it was probably trained with some text to begin with, so that users can start off directly. and i've only used it for 4 days now, so it's probably not got enough of my text to learn.

still, i never figured what fun it could be till tonight, when i plugged in my earphones after ages, and happened to be tweeting:

everything sounds better with good earphones. even typing on my phone sounds awesome.


and then discovered the sound the spacebar makes:
the spacebar packs some fuckin punch man! like DIDJHIK!!!


and then discovered what happens when i keep pressing space (it auto accepts the most likely word):
I am a beautiful person. I am a beautiful person. I am a beautiful person. I am a beautiful person. feck, my keyboard is mad.


and subsequently went crazy for about an hour. i would type the first word, and keep pressing space to let the phone complete it:
experiment with the word.

fuck, you read those articles too. I am a beautiful person.

what have you been been opened in a few days. I am a beautiful person.

you lasted so long to get to know that I have a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

chicken salami and cheese sandwiches @having :-P. I am a beautiful person.

did you get the chance to get to know that I have a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

to this email address is being a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

how are you going to be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

haha I told him you wanted someone to push me off but I think it is a bit of a question about the whole thing was that the information.

The only thing that you are looking for a few days. I am a beautiful person.

looking forward to seeing you all the time. I am a beautiful person.

driving there is a bit of a question about the whole thing was that the information in this outgoing message. I am a beautiful person.

go down to the bottom of the day. I am a beautiful person.

mom has been a bit of a question about the whole thing was that the information in this outgoing message. I am a beautiful person.

on the road to recovery. I am a beautiful person.

fish puns boys, meaning that once you have any questions, please contact us at the moment. I am a beautiful person.

Doctor Who. I am a beautiful person.

dad, who is not a problem. I am a beautiful person.

eat some cake, and I will be a good idea to advertise your company slogan.

today I had a poke friend in office, and I will be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

waiting for the train station. I am a beautiful person.

feeling of sheer number of people who are interested in the UK. I am a beautiful person.

twitter makes me feel so I can do. I am a beautiful person.

should have a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

boobies in green! I am a beautiful person.

facebook profile click here to enjoy the world. I am a beautiful person.

thanks for the nice idea! I am a beautiful person.

cracker of a question about the whole thing was that the information in this outgoing message. I am a beautiful person.

The only thing that is the first time I have a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

good to see you soon, love, and I will be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

failing that, but I think it is a bit of a question about the whole thing was that the information in this outgoing message.

buy a new one. I am a beautiful person.

move on to the list. I am a beautiful person.

might have to be home by 2 :) http ://android-es. I am a beautiful person.

its got to go to the list. I am a beautiful person.

fuck, you read those articles too? I am a beautiful person.

arrgh, fuck! I am a beautiful person.

nooo! I am a beautiful person.

she is a bit of a question about the whole thing was that the information in this outgoing message. I am a beautiful person.

replacing the first time I have a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

i'll get back to you. I am a beautiful person.

free one of the reasons for this week. I am a beautiful person.

awrighty then! I am a beautiful person.

give me a ring on the web, go to the list. I am a beautiful person.

hi, no, I am a beautiful person.

he played for arsenal albeit an incredibly brief stint as a result of any viruses. I am a beautiful person.

change the way, I am a beautiful person.

riya vohra. I am a beautiful person.

watching and pointing. I am a beautiful person.

vodka cost of the day. I am a beautiful person.

cool, dry, and I will be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

enough to be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

three of the day. I am a beautiful person.

nope. I am a beautiful person.

technically and intellectually to handle the first time I have a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

very cool that you are looking for a few days. I am a beautiful person.

England and Wales, number of people who are interested in the UK. I am a beautiful person.

indeed, it is a bit of a question about the whole thing was that the information in this outgoing message. I am a beautiful person.

loads of great interest to you. I am a beautiful person.

shall we meet at the moment. I am a beautiful person.

Hurry up and down the road. I am a beautiful person.

i'm at home. I am a beautiful person.

omg, what happened to the bitchwanti in you? I am a beautiful person.

feck. I am a beautiful person.

uh, is my wisdom causing you some sorta pain? I am a beautiful person.

ahhh! I am a beautiful person.

ah bloody wait to see you soon, love, and I will be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

listen to the list. I am a beautiful person.

girls, lock em in the UK. I am a beautiful person.

dude. I am a beautiful person.

question your future as a result of any viruses. I am a beautiful person.

free one of the reasons for this week. I am a beautiful person.

next next week week.. I am a beautiful person.

Nicky Hayden. I am a beautiful person.

Bunny. I am a beautiful person.

thought about it. I am a beautiful person.

as we are going to be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

toy soldier. I am a beautiful person.

cars, seven police officers and I will be a good idea to advertise your company slogan. I am a beautiful person.

dear people to help you out. I am a beautiful person.

what have you been to a few days. I am a beautiful person.

okay, so shall we exchange pleasantries on facebook all day. I am a beautiful person.

you lasted so long to get to know that I have a good idea to advertise your company slogan.


and the final tweet, typed without accepting any suggestions:
chalo, experiment over.

Sunday, August 08, 2010

how you doin'!

I used to think i'm a terrible flirt. in fact, I still do. I just get by because the rules have changed.

flirting as a sport is fun. but I find it weird to say things I kinda don't mean and then justify them in its name.

I don't like that thought.

Because sometimes it feels like hypocrisy. and at other times it feels like deceit.

and I don't like either.

It's hard to explain that "i love you" actually means "i like you".

guess I really need to sleep now.

Sunday, August 01, 2010

save me from my madness

i touched cotton today because i wanted to unpack and set up my amp and speakers and ipod before i went to the 'room.

i had just transported the system via a rickshaw, a boat, a car, and another rickshaw, from my friend's farewell party at manori beach.

all for an awesome dump with a background score by dj tiesto, and the *doorframe* rattling with the bass.

The friend

All good things must come to an end, they say. This one will just come to a pause, I say.

Because I will miss you.

And you will come back.

Fare you well!

breakdown

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