I realize most of life is cyclical. Ups and downs. Never a straight line. A dynamic equilibrium.
Seasons are cyclical too.
And this pandemic is turning out to be more cyclical than initially imagined.
But there are times when things do not seem cyclical.
Halfway on the way up of the cycle, just before things start to taper off, we probably don't care much. Things are great, sure, and even if the upward trajectory seems like it will flatten out, it's still great, right?
Things are different on the downturn though.
Things are going downhill, fast.
The trajectory is headed straight down, with no apparent force to bring things back to flat.
But as things go downhill, the feedback should start to kick in. Shouldn't it?
Survival instinct is a label for so much more than it might seem like on the surface.
At what point does too much of a good thing become a bad thing?
How do you turn too much of a good thing, that's become a bad thing, back into a good thing?
Is it really about the good thing or the bad thing?
Time continues to move at its constant pace, while my perception of it seems to slow down. Days, weeks, months lived without a trace. And all this while, what seemed like things going OK is actually more like dropping at terminal velocity, giving the impression that nothing is moving.
I don't think I have ever spent such a long period of time just... static.
And the funny thing is, I know what can help me.
I need to get off the couch and drink a glass of water.
Stretch my legs.
And m shoulders. Damn, my shoulders need a stretch!
Take out the trash.
Fill some air in the bike.
But I'd rather not.
And that's what worries me.