Monday, May 31, 2010

the loss of a dear one

two of my relatives have expired in the last two weeks. both of terminal conditions (terminal old age and terminal cancer, to be precise).

the contrast was very apparent.

my grandaunt was a little over 80, and has lived to see her grandchildren, some of whom are working and pretty successful in life. when she expired, everyone just gave a collective sigh and moved on. the talk at the family get together after the funeral was more about work, studies, exchanging notes distant relatives, and more mundane day-to-day stuff. pretty much everybody was prepared for her passing away, and frankly, no one was unduly saddened by anything other than the fact that she spent her last few months in bed, unable to move and bearing a great deal of pain.

my aunt, on the other hand, was just past 50, had already lost her husband 10 years ago, and had two kids, one in school and one in college. the kids themselves put on brave faces and barely cried, but i could hardly imagine what it must have felt for them. it's moments like these where we sometimes question god's justice when it comes to handing out suffering, hardship and death. i'm almost 15 years older than the younger boy, and yet i can't bear to even imagine the loss of either of my parents, let alone both.

at the get together after the funeral, we pledged to all be their parents and brothers and sisters, but i know that it can never be the same for them. but i know one thing: god doesn't do anything that you can't deal with. i hope my cousins find that strength and will in him, and in the memory of their parents, and grow up to be great, loving people, as their parents would have wished.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

tapering off...

two blog posts in the last month. i think people would have given up on my blog by now.

well, for those of you who haven't, i'm getting back to it with a vengeance.

see you around!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


i don't make friends easily.
i don't lose friends easily.
but when i do, it just weighs me down.
this time, i know, it was all my fault.

i still haven't brought myself to say sorry though.

it shall come. soon.

Friday, May 07, 2010

pop culture is not the answer

i question the sanity of someone who derives his philosophy of life from movie quotes. it's like taking medical advice from a 2 year old, but actually, much, much, worse!

the value of life

another friend passed away. unexpected and untimely. it doesn't really hit me as much as it used to, 10 years or so ago. it's just a...