it's strange, writing this on my blog when i'd rather be speaking to you.
you are no longer in this world.
you will not read the card i left with mom "to be opened on your 76th birthday"
you will not read the card i left with kevin "to be opened on your 40th anniversary"
but i guess you don't need to any more.
you do not need more reminders of how awesome you are.
how strong you are.
how much you mean to us.
how much we cherish your every memory.
how much you loved.
the things you taught me.
the things you let me learn for myself.
the things you took in your stride.
i look around and i see reminders of your beautiful existence everywhere.
i need to remind myself that i am your creation too.
every moment with you enriched me.
even the moment when you finally taught me that i need to be able to let go of everything i hold dear.
thank you for making me who i am.
for making me able to do everything i have and will do.
your embrace has kept me going even when you did not know what i have been going through.
i feel it now, in this cold room.
your few words have said more than what the world's books could.
i hear them now, in the silence of my thoughts.
your ideals will live on, as long as i live on.
i will carry your spirit with me as long as i live.
our corner of the world has become a better place thanks to you.
thank you dad.