Wednesday, May 13, 2026

Social Media Negativity and Online Behavior

K = me, G = Google Gemini

K: Facebook attracts all sorts of weird unsavoury characters. These days I dread a comment being voted by their algorithm as a "top comment" because even the most unassuming top comment can attract people who seem to go around spreading negativity. Worst of all, the comment doesn't even need to be particularly good to randomly become a top comment - all it needs is for it to catch the algorithm's fancy! So any comment has a chance of attracting attention from what I can only assume must be terrible people! I'm glad there are no such people on my friend list (or at least, not that I'm aware of). Why can't social media be a safe, positive space? Do these people who are unnecessarily rude to strangers also equally bad to people they know personally?

G: It’s completely understandable why you’d feel that "Top Comment" dread. There is a specific kind of whiplash that happens when a harmless observation suddenly becomes a lightning rod for the internet’s most dedicated contrarians. It feels like you’ve accidentally stepped onto a stage you never asked to be on, only to find the front row filled with hecklers.

The "Top Comment" algorithm is often less about quality and more about velocity—how quickly people react. Unfortunately, anger and outrage are the fastest drivers of engagement, which means the system often rewards the very friction you’re trying to avoid.

Why Social Media Struggles to Be "Safe"

The dream of a purely positive digital space often clashes with a few hard realities of human psychology and platform design:

  • The Disinhibition Effect: When people don't see a physical face or hear a human voice, their "social brakes" fail. The person being rude likely views you as an avatar or a screen, not a living person with feelings.

  • Engagement Over Harmony: Algorithms are designed to keep eyes on the screen. A heated debate (even a toxic one) keeps people clicking and scrolling longer than a dozen people politely agreeing with each other.

  • The "Context Collapse": On your friend list, everyone shares a common thread (you). In the public comments of a major page, thousands of people with wildly different life stresses, biases, and bad moods are shoved into one "room."


Are They This Bad in Real Life?

This is the golden question. The answer is usually a mix of "no" and "it's complicated."

The Online PersonaThe Real-Life Reality
The Keyboard WarriorOften surprisingly timid in person. They use the internet as a pressure valve for frustrations they feel powerless to express in their actual lives.
The Recreational ContrarianThey might be perfectly pleasant to friends but view public comment sections as a "game" or a debate club where empathy isn't a requirement.
The Genuinely ToxicA small percentage of these people are actually difficult in their personal lives. Studies on "Dark Tetrad" personality traits suggest that those who enjoy trolling often lack empathy in all spheres.

Most of the time, these people are "Compartmentalized Jerks." They treat the public internet like a void they can scream into without consequence, while still being the person who brings a potato salad to the neighborhood BBQ and acts perfectly "normal."

Protecting Your Peace

Since we can't redesign Meta's algorithm overnight, the best defense is often aggressive curation. If a comment of yours starts gaining "Top Comment" traction and the vibes turn sour, don't feel obligated to defend your ground. Muting the thread or even deleting the comment isn't "losing"—it's just reclaiming your mental real estate from people who haven't earned a minute of your time.

Do you find that certain topics or specific types of pages seem to attract this negativity more than others, or does it feel like it's just everywhere regardless of the subject?

K: It seems to be everywhere to varying degrees

G: That "everywhere" feeling is a result of Digital Ubiquity. Because social media has moved from a niche hobby to the primary way we consume news, entertainment, and social updates, the "public square" is now effectively infinite and unmoderated.

When negativity feels universal, it’s usually due to a few specific "gravity wells" that pull those unsavory characters into almost every corner of the internet:

1. The "Main Character" Syndrome

Many people now use comment sections as a personal stage rather than a place for dialogue. They aren't responding to you; they are performing for an imaginary audience, using your comment as a springboard to broadcast their own grievances or "wit."

2. Algorithmic Homogenization

Platforms like Facebook try to predict what will make you stay on the app. If you interact—even out of annoyance—with a negative thread, the algorithm notes that "Productive Conflict" (or just plain drama) keeps you active. Consequently, it feeds you more "Top Comments" that are likely to trigger a response, creating an illusion that the world is angrier than it actually is.

3. The "Low Barrier to Entry"

In a physical community, there is a social cost to being a jerk (people stop inviting you to things). On a public Facebook post, there is zero cost. This creates a "Tragedy of the Commons" where the digital space becomes polluted because no one is held accountable for the mess they leave behind.


How to Navigate the "Everywhere"

Since the toxicity is widespread, the strategy has to shift from avoidance to filtering:

  • The 2-Second Rule: If a reply starts with an insult or an aggressive "Actually...", stop reading immediately. Your brain processes the negativity faster than the logic; cutting it off early saves your cortisol levels.

  • Privacy Pivoting: Many users are moving away from public commenting entirely, preferring "Dark Social"—private groups, Discord servers, or group chats where the "Top Comment" algorithm doesn't exist and membership is curated.

  • Selective Ghosting: You are never under any obligation to provide a "closing statement" to a stranger. Silence is often the loudest way to tell a troll they are irrelevant.

It’s a bit like living in a city with a lot of smog; you can't stop the factories from running, but you can choose when to keep your windows closed.

Since you've noticed your friend list is a safe haven, do you find yourself spending more time in those private spaces now, or do you still feel the pull to engage with the broader public feed despite the "smog"?

K: I end up in the public feed due to the engaging content posted there and my fear is only obvious after I receive negative interaction

G: That is the ultimate "algorithm trap." The content is the bait—it’s genuinely funny, informative, or relatable—and you engage with it in good faith, only to realize too late that you’ve stepped into a digital hornets' nest.

It’s a bit like finding a beautiful park, sitting down on a bench to enjoy the view, and only then realizing the bench is covered in wet paint and surrounded by people looking for a fight. The "fear" you feel is a natural response to social ambush.

Why the Ambush Feels So Bad

The reason it hits so hard after the fact is because of how our brains process social feedback:

  • The Surprise Factor: Because your comment was unassuming, your "defenses" were down. When someone responds with vitriol, it creates a jump-scare effect for your nervous system.

  • The Asymmetry of Effort: You spent two seconds being nice or observant; they spent ten minutes being a "detective" trying to find a way to twist your words. That imbalance feels deeply unfair.

  • The "Notification Sting": That little red icon usually means a friend liked a photo or a family member replied. When you click it expecting a "hit" of dopamine and get a "hit" of adrenaline from a mean stranger instead, it feels like a betrayal of the interface.


Managing the "Post-Comment" Anxiety

Since the public feed is where the engaging content lives, you don't necessarily have to abandon it, but you can change how you "exit" the interaction.

  • Disable Notifications for Specific Comments: On Facebook, you can click the three dots on your own comment and select "Turn off notifications for this post." This is a superpower. You’ve said your piece, you've enjoyed the content, and you’ve effectively walked out of the room and locked the door behind you.

  • The "Edit" Stealth Move: If a comment starts going viral for the wrong reasons, some people edit the comment to say "[Deleted]" or just a period ".". It breaks the algorithm's "velocity" and usually makes the trolls move on to a fresher target.

  • Reframe the "Top Comment" Badge: If the algorithm crowns you, try to view it as a glitch in the matrix rather than an invitation to host a gala. You didn't ask for the crown, and you don't have to talk to the "subjects" in the comments section.

It’s a shame we have to build these mental bunkers just to enjoy a video of a cat playing a piano or a clever news satire, but protecting your peace is more important than being "right" in a thread full of strangers.

When you get one of those negative notifications, do you find yourself tempted to explain your original intent to them, or have you reached the point where you just want to block and move on?

K: I block and move on, but it seems like I do so too late.

G: That "too late" feeling is usually because the damage to your mood happens the second you read the words. Even if you block them five seconds later, the adrenaline spike and the sense of being misunderstood have already flooded your system. You’ve already "let them in," and blocking feels like slamming the door after the thief is already in the kitchen.

It’s an exhausting cycle because you're essentially being punished for being a normal, social human being.

Why "Blocking Later" Feels Like Losing

When you block after the interaction, it often feels unsatisfying for a few reasons:

  • The Last Word: Your brain knows they got their "shot" in, and by blocking, you aren't getting a resolution—you're just ending the broadcast.

  • The Lingering Echo: Even after they are blocked, you might find yourself mentally rehearsing the argument you could have had or explaining your intent to a person who no longer exists on your screen.

  • The Search for "Why?": You spend time wondering what is wrong with them or why that specific comment triggered them, which gives them even more of your mental energy.


Moving the "Shield" Upstream

To avoid that "too late" feeling, you have to move your defensive line from Reactive (blocking after the sting) to Proactive (preventing the sting). Here are a few ways to "hardened" your public profile:

  • The "Post and Ghost" Protocol: If you post a comment on a high-traffic public page, immediately click the three dots and Turn off notifications. Don't wait for the first reply. If it becomes a "Top Comment," you’ll never know, and the trolls will be shouting into a void you aren't even monitoring.

  • Lock Down Your Profile: Ensure that "strangers" or "friends of friends" cannot see your past posts, photos, or friends list. Often, these "unsavoury characters" will click your profile to find ammunition to use against you. If they see a wall, they usually get bored and move on.

  • Keyword Filtering: In your Facebook settings, you can actually hide comments containing certain words from your timeline. While it doesn't work perfectly for public threads, it can help sanitize your own space.

Reframing the "Win"

The "win" isn't successfully explaining yourself to a stranger; the win is maintaining your heart rate. If you block someone and still feel bad, remind yourself that the person on the other end is likely a "Recessional Contrarian"—someone who is literally bored and looking for a reaction to feel alive. By blocking them, you have denied them the only thing they wanted: your attention. You didn't "lose" the argument; you "won" back your afternoon.

ps: This "conversation" was saved from weeks ago because it struck me as being one of the most productive conversations I might have had with an AI!

Tuesday, May 12, 2026

cats!

my neighbour has a black and white cat that always sits at the window, watching every passer-by. we often joke that it judges our parking skills 😂

there is a second black and white cat that frequents our garden and is very shy.

I have never seen both cats at the same time, and didn't realize they actually look identical!

yesterday, as I returned home from my evening walk, I saw the outdoor cat and the indoor cat: the outdoor one had its paws on the window sill, and the indoor one was face to face on the inside of the window. the outdoor cat left the window before I could react (and I obviously was not going to click a photo of my neighbour's living room!). this was the first time the indoor cat was so intently staring at something else (the outdoor cat) that it refused to even glance at me... and also the first time the outdoor cat stood their ground and didn't scoot away!

As soon as I was out of sight (I hid behind my car) the outdoor cat was back up against the window.

are the two cats siblings? twins? attracted to each other?

ps: the outdoor cat was doing the "slow blink" at me which supposedly indicates affection, but its body language was clearly uncomfortable 🤔

Wednesday, April 29, 2026

why do i blog?

last weekend, my blog came up in a random conversation with friends. people were curious about why I blog. I don't think people quite get it. I guess blogging as a concept has kinda fallen out of public parlance, replaced by social media - which most people seem to think is the best way to broadcast to people who care (or maybe even people who don't!).

my blog occupies a small but specific niche in terms of communication: it's obviously absolutely public, searchable, indexed, cached by google etc, so an entirely public record of what I've chosen to say. it's also very clearly linked to my identity, so indusputably me, and also not bound by any platform or website's terms of use, so practically impossible to take down - I'm guessing/hoping it will outlast my facebook and twitter profiles!

it serves another useful purpose though. in a world dominated by clickbait, algorithms, quick punchy content, this is a space for long form old-fashioned text. a space to speak my mind about things that the algorithms that govern most platforms won't consdier worthy of attention.

also, in a weird way, the lack of metrics (OK, I do have google analytics, but I don't open it unless I'm informed there's a problem!) means I'm encouraged to not care about how well my "content" is doing - which encourages me to be "me".

ps: the blog turned 19 last month, and I didn't even realize it until I did the mental math during that conversation!

pps: I decided it's time I update the 18 year old photo in the upper right corner! long overdue, eh?



Tuesday, April 28, 2026

dad visits me daily

it's been a weird week or so - I wake up practically every morning having had dreams of dad. the first few got me quite emotional - in fact there was a weird one where I woke up in tears and it sounded like Shruti was crying as well! I asked her if she was dreaming of her mom, and if she was OK but it seems she wasn't crying at all.

I think it's now become a self-reinforcing cycle. every time I wake up, I spend some time thinking about my dreams, and that might reinforce my tendency to dream about dad the next night?

either way, I'm not complaining. it's weird: I spent a while thinking that while I remember dad quite often as I'm going about my life (especially taking apart and re-assembling electronics, and experimenting with food!) thinking about him doesn't really get me that emotional any more. in fact I think I've reached that phase with everyone who's passed away... but I have to now add the caveat that I only am this way when fully awake. when dreaming, it's quite different. dad wasn't quite the emotional sort in the sense of talking about feelings and emotions, but he definitely knew how to make me feel loved. I'm glad that Shruti does the same, and maybe that's why I don't feel like I miss him with that "empty inside" feeling I had for a while after he passed away.

still, one weird thing in all my dreams is that at some point I do realize he has actually passed away and the thought comes to my mind "can I talk to dad about his own death?" and weirdly enough, in my dreams, I do kinda mention it, but he never talks about it. in a couple of dreams he actually said things like "that happened while I was away" or "I wasn't here when that happened".

today's dream was quite different from the past few though. it was about me and mom going to church for his one year anniversary mass. kevin was already seated, as was most of the rest of our family. it might have been a re-enactment of what I thought his funeral would have been like, as I was unable to attend it in person. I was very emotional in the dream, and even more so when I realized that while it looked and felt like a funeral, the coffin wasn't there and it was actually a year later! the most striking part of that dream was the family gathering around me and me replaying all of the last few days' dreams in my head, telling them that he's coming back, while simultaneously remembering that he isn't - remembering that I saw his remains being sealed off in the niche.

and now, after blogging all of this I am beginning to wonder if I will dream of him again tonight!

Saturday, April 25, 2026

kristopher's cookbook: all purpose sauce

we've been mostly off dipping sauces for years, for many reasons, but the fact remains that we do like them. my jam-making experiment reminded me of dad's ketchup making experiment, and my attempt to try and use peanut butter (which I bulk-purchased last year for the birds - but the birds don't seem to like it much any more!) to make a peanut-butter and marmite spread inspired me to try something unconventional. and so, one bored afternoon later, I am proud to unveil my "all purpose sauce"

ingredients:
700gm tomato puree
250gm chopped onions (I used white onions)
100 gm chopped garlic
3 generously heaped tablespoons peanut butter (I used organic peanut butter with only two ingredients, 99% peanuts and 1% salt)
2 tablespoons yellow mustard (ie mustard dal, without the outer shells)
additional salt to taste
a dash of sugar - maybe 2 teaspoons
150gm "medium" curry powder
freshly ground pepper to taste
3 chopped chillies
2 teaspoons cumin
6 chopped spring onions
oil to fry

recipe: 
fry the cumin, onions and chillies until the onion is beginning to brown. add garlic and spring onions and fry until aromatic. 

cool until OK to put into a blender (my blender bowl is plastic!) 

meanwhile in a heavy utensil (I have a cast iron one coated with enamel) heat all the remaining ingredients (primarily tomato puree and curry powder) gently

once cool enough to blend the fried stuff, blend with sugar, salt, mustard. add peanut butter and blend again until smooth.

add blended mix into simmering paste once it's bubbling.

stir until slightly thick on very low heat to get it to your desired consistency.

fill up into a glass jar, cool, enjoy! also, refrigerate as there are no preservatives, and pack it so that there are no air bubbles to ensure longevity.

it's great for spreading, dipping, or to add a punch of flavour to mild stuff like boiled eggs! the curry powder and peanut butter dominate the flavours. I would call it a peanut-y curry sauce!


ps: full disclosure, it's already been 3 weeks and I'm 3/4th through the jar as I type this, but hey!

kristopher's cookbook: jam!

my dad's love of DIY extended to well beyond the usual, to food... some very unorthodox (notably his attempt at making ketchup, that went wrong due to him basically replicating the ingredients off a ketchup bottle label, using proportions estimated from the nuitrition facts!) but there's something he never went wrong with: jam!

and so, last year, when I left from Harshad's farm near Kodaikanal, with my saddle bags padded with tamarillos (that's how I ensured they didn't sag!) and arrived in Mumbai - it was time to make jam!

the thing about jam is, while dad made detailed recipes, and I probably even scanned them and have digital copies of his notes on a hard disk somewhere, I remember two things about jam-making very clearly: that it's extremely simple, and that it's basically simmering equal parts fruit and granulated sugar until the texture is right.

and yes, that is basically it!

I did make some modifications though: I used a ratio of 60% fruit to 40% sugar, added lemon juice to help it set (thanks, google!) - and used the "wrinkle test" to check when it was done (thanks, google, again!)

and... that was it!

in hindsight, the tamarillo jam set a little too firm - probably because I googled the wrinkle test when it had already set. also, one cannot discount beginner's luck, especially in my case! so attempt 2 (literally as I was getting to the bottom of the 1.5kg jar of tamarillo jam!) was blueberry jam.

same recipe: 60% blueberry (1kg) to 40% granualted sugar, but with some assorted frozen berries that were lying in the freezer chucked in as well, and a bit of lemon zest for a bit of extra depth of flavour. also, did the wrinkle test just-about in time - and it had already set at that point, as it passed the test on the first try! much better than the previous attempt.

entirely satisfactory once again. also really cheap: about £11 if you don't count the cost of cooking gas (thanks to a good deal on blueberries at M&S!). and if you add the fact that there are no artificial additives, and the fruit to sugar ratio is well above commercially available jam, I am pleased with myself!

TL;DR: #slurpalicious #foodgasm!

Saturday, April 11, 2026

where is the love?

what's wrong with the world mama?
people acting like they got no mamas 
I think the whole world's addicted to the drama
only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma

- the black eyed peas, 2003

that was 2003. before the advent of social media. 23 years later, we can see the rest of the song playing out, and worse. 

what went wrong? what happened, really? it's the enshittification of the world. first, we let tech companies grow unchecked. then they went public at insane valuations just because of hype. they expanded to curating the information we see, and advertising being their hidden side business. they switched from benign policies to actively farming ragebait. smart people realized this could be used to influence public opinion, as opposed to selling stuff. it was first small targeted campaigns, but in an increasingly connected society, they realized the power of these platforms was far greater than anything else before it. powerful enough to push national elections one way or the other... and obviously this benefits extreme views! a sane nuanced view is hard to farm engagement with. to make things worse, AI suddenly started producing results after. decades of trying... made it easier to fake content. it got so good that people cannot tell fiction from reality. and of course, the countries that have not fallen prey to these tools, tendencies and struggles still are dealing with one of the structural problems of democracy - slowness to react to change and old laws working against their ability to deal with new threats.

this, ladies and gentlemen, is my summary of "what's wrong with the world mama"

unfortunately for us, just love isn't going to fix it. 

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